xXShadowsXx

2009-10-10T21:31:00.002+08:00

MIXTAPE

Yesterday was officially the last day of school. cant believe i would be saying this but i'll definitely miss school :/ waking up early, wearing the uniform, being late for school, the detentions, the canings, the lectures by the teachers, the demerit points (FYI i gt 60 dis yr), the smokerlysing (idk how to spell) and last but nt least my frens and teachers who have never gave up encouraging me. they were the ones who stuck by me and gave me unrelenting support. they have never rejected me when i needed their help. special thanks to Ms Tan YiMing, Mr Pah, Mrs Thang, Ms Sia, Mr Singh (some way or another), Justin, Stuart, Zahran, Zhiting, Luyi and last but most Jasmine. :D:D:D:D:D
2 more wks to O levels and im finally starting to feel the pressure :/

2009-10-06T22:46:00.000+08:00

"Lollipops turn into cigarettes. The innocent ones turn into sluts. Homework goes in the trash. Mobile phones are being used in class. Detention becomes suspension. Soda becomes vodka. Bikes become cars. Kisses turn into sex. Remember when getting high meant swinging on the playground? When protection meant wearing a helmet? When the worst things you could get from boys were cooties? Dad’s shoulders were the highest place on earth and mum was your hero? Your worst enemies were your siblings. Race issues were about who ran the fastest. War was only a card game. And the only drug you knew was cough medicine. When wearing a skirt didn’t make you a slut. The most pain you felt was when you skinned your knees, and goodbyes only meant until tomorrow? And we couldn’t wait to grow up".

Read. Liked it. Posted it. :D

2009-09-20T18:51:00.002+08:00

i noticed you noticing me, so im just putting you on notice that i noticed you too.
oh baby i noe ur feet must be tired coz u have been running thru my mind all day long.
damn u look so good i wish i could plant u and grow a whole field of you.
somebody call the cops coz it must be illegal to look dis good.
hey girl u look so good i would marry ur brother just to get into ur family.
look miss i just would like to apologise on behalf on my gender for his rude behaviour.
hey dear if god created anything prettier i hope he kept it for himself.
hey baby if i told u u had a beautiful body would u hold it against me?

JUST FOR LAUGHS :D

2009-09-20T15:41:00.006+08:00

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=F5CnRr_nzc8 (Hearts burst into fire-BFMV)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1VT3FSrBHRQ (Tears dun fall original video-BFMV)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GkuypwKUX2Y (Your Call-Secondhand Serenade)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D4ERvv-lA2I (I Can't Name You-Man With Robot Hands)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=IA6rG1jlUpA (New Perspective-Panic At The Disco)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=4pXfHLUlZf4 (Jizz in my pants)

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yxp8fdK2PTc (Promise in the Dark-Keri Hilson)

watch and enjoy :D

2009-08-06T22:36:00.000+08:00

Two in my heart

have left me a while

I stand alone

When they get back

It wont be the same

2009-08-06T22:31:00.000+08:00

Farewell-Kamelot

Winter's close...and the mountain high
I'll start my journey now
On this planet we call Earth we belong
I want to know
Why did God make me feel
There is more to be answered
Maybe God cannot remedy
Our souls if he tried
I seek peace of mind at least
And to know I did my best
I will pray for those I have loved
I must take your farewell
Carried by destiny
Bound to obey
I must take your farewell
Trails of discovery
Lead me an ocean away
No one holds the only truth in his hand
So who am I
To defy even God
In quest for a reason
There's no time to waste I'm afraid
I must take your farewell
Carried by destiny
Bound to obey
I must take your farewell
Trails of discovery
Lead me an ocean away
So far away
When the tide is high
I won't dwell or wait no longer

2009-08-06T22:26:00.000+08:00

Temples Of Gold-Kamelot

I see you when it snows
in crystals dancing down
from a sultry sky
when silence is pure and unbreakable
I can see you smiling
in every frozen tear
I can hear you whisper "You and I?
little did we know
that they were life itself
the days passing by
we both had our share in the sacrifice
once upon a time
we had something beautiful
once upon a time
I thought "you and I?
take me wherever
the answer lingers in the sand
show me the way as the story unfolds
love is remote
in this wailing winter wonderland
show me the way to the temples of gold
bless me with a kiss
across the universe
when day and night converge
and whisper my name till I fall asleep
tell me tales from days bygone
tell me little lies
tell me once again
it's just "you and I?

Can You Remember

2009-08-06T21:56:00.001+08:00

Can You Remember-Kamelot

"Hey! Woo! Thank you! Okay, we're gonna slow it down for a bit now.
This is a song about a girl that might have forgotten me by now.
But I hope we will meet again some time in the future."

A flame within my heart has died
This a song, it's song with no reprise
Today I just don't know why
What we had and what we shared, so divine

Sunrise in Osaka, but I'm cold tonight
The northern lights are shining, and my dreams take flight

Can you remember? Tell me how far I have to go
Can you remember lust in the eastern skies?
Can you remember when you told me sayonara?
Can you remember me? 'Cause I will never say goodbye

A flame within my heart has died
Too far away, it's too far for me to say
I wish I could turn back time
Is there anyone to blame?
Show me the way

Sunrise in Osaka, but I'm cold tonight
The northern lights are shining, and my dreams take flight
Memories are forever, and I see your face
Crying in the distance, 'til we fall from grace

Can you remember? Tell me how far I have to go?
Can you remember lust in the eastern skies?
Can you remember when you told me sayonara?
Can you remember me? 'Cause I will never say goodbye

Can you remember? Tell me how far I have to go
Can you remember lust in the eastern skies?
Can you remember when you told me sayonara?
Can you remember me? 'Cause I will never say goodbye

"Thank you."

2009-07-21T21:52:00.002+08:00

Forever-Kamelot

there's a pain within
that I can't define
there's an empty space
where your love used to shine
from the night we met
till the day you died
do you think I wished
do you still believe I tried
all too soon we were divided
and life had just begun

will you revivefrom the chaos in my mind
where we still are bound together
will you be there
waiting by the gates of dawn
when I close my eyes forever

I belong to you
you belong to me
it's the way things are
always meant to be
like the morning star and the rising sun
you convey my life
and forgive me what I've done
all too soon we were divided
into darkness and light

will you revive
from the chaos in my mind
where we still are bound together
will you be there
waiting by the gates of dawn
when I close my eyes forever
save me
reverse how I'm thinking of you
every breath I take
brings me closer closer to forever, to you
I'm waiting for the day that I'm gone

2009-07-21T20:32:00.002+08:00

my love for you=nothing

coz nothing is ever built to last forever :)

2009-07-10T19:09:00.001+08:00

No matter how much you want to make yourself forget about the past, how hard you try to brush it aside and block it out, it's stuck to you. Frequently giving you a mental nudge saying 'hey, I happened before' It's how you react to this that really matters. You can go 'why did that have to happen' or instead go 'It's okay, I'm stronger and smarter now'

copied word for word from TSK's blog :D

2009-06-29T22:13:00.002+08:00

check them out!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sDgixhllvUI

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=UmmV3wO6egE&NR=1

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=5UOwnq6rWrw

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=nOiueMCiznw&feature=related

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lGhxT1S2ilc&feature=related

losing hope

2009-06-28T18:44:00.003+08:00

exam's tmr yet no mood to study. dont want to fail yet no drive to make an effort.

XBB's blog tagboard getting worse day by day. hopefully the jackguests will stop leaving hurtful comments. although it wont make any difference to those who noe her well and the real truth, yet it still hurts to see a loved one criticised. done my part but all i can say is you gotta be strong coz wat doesnt kill you will only make you stronger.

If it takes you forever I want you to know

That if you fall

stumble down

I'll pick you up off the ground

If you lose faith in you

I'll give you strength to pull through

Tell me you won't give up

cause I'll be waiting if you fall

Oh you know I'll be there for you

If only I could find the answer

To take it all away

If only...

2009-06-19T23:10:00.002+08:00

been such a long time since i logged in to the computer. no mood to do anything other than to watch TV, slp and eat. daily routine for the past week. switched on the com today only becoz mr pah called and asked me to log into the emb or wateva shit immediately. logged in and the only news available was the new SLB. as if i give two hoots abt it! was expecting sth more substantial such as extending of hols -> postponing of MYE!!! didnt do much revison other than a lil of physics and a maths :( had a game of soccer two days ago at punggol cc. shit place more of a desert then a field with an entire patch of sand at the centre. lost 3-2. scored a lame penalty and dat was all. the rest of the game was spent limping around in the stupid boots. blog hopped just now. saw a very interesting entry (7 June) by dis dear fren of mine. dunnoe y but had a weird feeling after reading it. dunnoe how to explain so dun bother. nth else to update so till next mth...

No, i dun really wanna leave u behind

but apparently u can't stay all mine

so i'll try to let you go

coz

you're nt mine to own

2009-06-06T23:40:00.002+08:00

nth much to update other than being the first person, along with rev and acs, dis yr to reach 20 demerit pts as well as getting 11 strokes in 5 mths. dats like abt 2 strokes each mth.
on the brighter side of life, soccer match on friday. won 4-3 but shuld have been 6-3 if nt some lame "offside" decisions by some daamn pro guy hu wears his supposed tight fit class t baggy. legs and feet aching like fcuk after game. before soccer played bball at 653. kena bang by aloy until fall. stupidly used wrist to support 62kg. wtf was i tinking sia. fell on my butt and as a result now my left hand and left butt is throbbing.
slacked the whole day today. watched tv after vacuuming the hse. xmen origins, then welcome (some hindi show) damn funny. then at nite watched the siege on channel 5. and now on the com clicking around and chatting with buddies. good to noe dat u have someone to open up to and disclose ur most secretest secrets to someone trustworthy :)
really thankful babe!

wat hurts the most

was being so close

and having so much to say

and watching you walk away

Escape the Fate

2009-04-28T18:19:00.008+08:00

RONNIE RADKE PREVIOUSLY FROM ESCAPE THE FATE!!!!

2009-04-26T18:44:00.002+08:00

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Pro Songs

2009-04-20T00:06:00.002+08:00

Automatic Loveletter - Unhearted lyrics LyricsMode.com (Unhearted-Automatic Loveletter)

Automatic Loveletter - Hush lyrics LyricsMode.com (Hush-Automatic Loveletter)

http://www.sweetslyrics.com/577711.Automatic%20Loveletter%20-%20Don (Don't make it so-Automatic Loveletter)

http://www.metrolyrics.com/i-will-be-lyrics-avril-lavigne.html (I will be-Avril Lavigne)

http://www.metrolyrics.com/innocence-lyrics-avril-lavigne.html (Innocence-Avril Lavigne)

4-4

2009-04-17T18:20:00.002+08:00

had a soccer match just now after sch with the sec5's (jovin and gang). managed to draw 4-4. whole body aching now so gonna make it short and sweet. the nite b4 went for night study (after so long) together with CS and JQHQ in the canteen. J and Steven were also there. at arnd 8+, we felt bored and hungry so we decided to experiment. damn tired and sweaty after our experiment. only the 5 of us would noe wth i am toking abt :P reached home at arnd 10 yesterday. bathed, prayed and ate before dozing off. failed to revise for amaths common test just now so i gave it a miss. would probly be taking it with cs when he gets back to sch.....sianned sia....totally zero motivation to study and do well despite the imminent approach of the fking O's....

Cheesy pickup lines

2009-04-12T21:10:00.003+08:00

soo fucking bored at home and decided to google for cheesy pickup lines and found dis website -
http://www.linesthataregood.com/cheesy.html (MUST GO)
complete list of damn pro pickup lines.....really cannot stop laughing esp when i imagine myself saying them to some girl...looking at their stunned expressions...rofl...seriously i wouldnt be caught dead saying those lines to a girl no matter how gorgeous....at most ill just stop and stare...like dat day...haha....

life's a bore

2009-04-09T20:28:00.003+08:00

same shit every mth. another 3 strokes of the cane on friday at the ava room and homecoming the next day. our class managed to earn a whopping $4686....i tink we might be the top earners arh. And dis is despite me giving discounts to cute and small kids like free like dat. most of the day spent camping at the "candy floss counter" with J collecting all the money. nth interesting except getting to meet a couple of ppl...dunnoe how come can nvr notice b4 despite being quite eye-catching...esp dat day :P sigh....olevels approaching yet still no desire to start to buck up and chiong- im lagging behind like crazy mind you. arhhhh i need to find the motivation to start studying now and i want it real quick....any suggestions?

2009-02-28T20:52:00.000+08:00

its been such a long time since i last logged into the com. life's the same shit every day. school/play bball/night study and when i get home im usually so tired to do anything else other than to bathe and eat b4 slping. nth interesting so far. will update when sth blog-worthy pops up :)

2009-02-14T21:49:00.001+08:00

HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY EVERYBODY!!!!

Pain in the Arse

2009-02-11T20:44:00.004+08:00

WTF sia!!! just when i tot things couldnt get any worse, i got my second caning session in XMS 2 days ago on Monday 090209. the pain was like "WOW!!!" and i really mean it arh. especially the 2nd stroke. my butt was like fcking hot and numb at the same time after dat.

on friday (060209) i took my attendance for NCC then after realising that i didnt have anything to do, i decided to go out to play bball. totally forgotten abt my detention dat day. mr singh, as expected, didnt believe that i forgot abt it then put me down as playing truant. and just for dat tadaaaa....my butt now got 2 extra red lines. but the surprising thing is that only the right side of my butt have scar. my left butt emerged unscathed. like dat also can kena caning sia. sch is damn strict but seriously nt helping sia. hair check every mth(seems so), make rules until so strict but still end up in band 3. as if by whacking ppl the butts can make them excel in their studies and push the sch back to band one=.=

and now barely 48 hrs after getting the 2 strokes, im on the caning waiting list again. and now wat happen? MALBORO ICE MINT happenned. last night me, cs and rev in 410 classroom studying (night study) chem for the common test just now. while trying to digest crap stuff like convalent and ionic bonding, mr singh suddenly came into the class. then ask me for my notebook. he flip here flip there then put it in my bag. then out of a sudden my shadows senses started ringing; he's gonna check my bag. true enuf, he casually like flip thru the files in my bag then opened the compartment where the MIM was kept. he took it out then i over there like stunned dunnoe how to explain. told him it was my fren's (before coming to sch the 3 of us met at 918). they halfway playing then rain. he never bring bag so he put it in my bag first. then i also dunnoe how come he/i can forget to ask/return back. guess it was just fate :(

so yup now im dreading coming to sch. with my ass still hurting like fuck, im gonna be doubly fucked if not by this week then next week. oh man. not ony caning but the 3 of us also kena 5 demerit pts so u add up altogether(see previous post) so far and wat do u get? a goner. FUCK YOU SIA!!!!

Living Hell

2009-02-07T20:36:00.002+08:00

wow life has been a living nightmare for me so far. from having f**ked up teachers (yes its the hd gay) complaining to the whole world about me slping in his damn interesting and exciting class (he even took pictures of me slping LOL) to being put under the notebook system(its the blue notebok that has to be signed when i leave home, reach sch, leave sch, reach home and after every period...CCAs included) to being controlled and watched over by mr singh. worse still, mr singh keeps daily contact with my dad and if the need arises(which seems like every single time) he will call my dad to come down to school to have a chitchat session about me. the way mr singh is treating me is as if im some hooligan who's done some huge crime :/ this year has totally been haywire for me. last year hols i actually planned to keep a low profile in my final year in xinmin and leave with a good name but it seems like my wish is not coming true what with 8 demerit points by january (12 more and byebye to my testimonial nt to forget caning). why is this happening to me? ARGGGH GOD HELP ME!!!

Twilight

2009-01-25T19:44:00.004+08:00

Before you came, my life was like a moonless night. Very dark, but there were stars - points of light and reason...And then you shot across my sky like a meteor. Suddenly everything was on fire; there was brilliancy, there was beauty. When you were gone, when the meteor had fallen over the horizon, everything went black. Nothing had changed, but my eyes were blinded by the light. I couldn't see the stars anymore. And there was no more reason for anything.